Title： After Searching So Long for the Right Answer Author： Akari Ever since I was a child, I thought it was normal to hold things in. I did what I was told and tried to be a “good girl” all the time. Maybe I did not even know that I had feelings of my own. Even after I became an adult and then a mother, that way of living did not change. Before I knew it, I was not only forcing myself to be patient, but also making the people around me do the same. Little by little, and very